Buzz of a traveller in need of a bond

Having a traveller life of constantly between countries can sometimes get to you. I make relationships, friends or bonds that never get to completely flourish because I always leave a place to go do something else. Whether it’s leaving to study, to work, to grasp opportunities or because my past has caught up with me and I must deal and face with things like a responsible adult who is building a future. All of this means I don’t ever have a super close friend who I talk to everyday, nor a partner nor a family member I always speak to . Solidarity is comforting yet so scary. The thing is I’m not annoyed I do things alone because I enjoy my life very much considering the shit I’ve been through. And I think I’ve got great people who look out for me and help me and I’m always grateful for that. But why is it I can never be happy with stability but I’m never happy with moving around because I always miss someone or something. It gets on my nerves. I love travelling, I love being in different places all the time. But sometimes I wish that place would make me actually want to stay there. No place does, so what am I to do. I long for somethings that are difficult to achieve moving around so much. You can never really completely be in love with someone, can’t let yourself fall because you will eventually leave and there doesn’t seem to be anyone leaving their lives to pursue one with me. I may just be rambling on here but I guess I use this blog for that very purpose, to express feelings and thoughts.

I could be one of those people who decide to drop everything they want to achieve in life to follow their heart, to follow love and passion but I don’t think that would finish fulfilling me, I wish I could and I wish I could find someone who would understand this. Life of a traveller I guess. Never know what you want but always got a flight booked😂